with all my heart.

Monday, June 26, 2006

THAT DARN PAIN IN MY THROAT IS KILLING ME!): oh whatever. my old lifestyle is back. yay! thank God that school reopened. the boredom at home can kill. been rotting the whole hols, didnt even get to go out): oh well. oh yes. saw baby in the morning. i was very very happy when i saw him, i tell u. didnt get to see him for duno-how-many-days! heh heh. LOVE YOU((: wanted to hug u, but couldnt. oh well. next time.

talking about him, his mapling is like the best. level 67 alreadi. but he havent reach his goal lah. level 70 is. ALL THE BEST, BABY!(:

sometimes i feel real real neglected when he's mapling. can like dun talk for the whole day until about 11 plus in the night. its really bad. feel like telling him how i feel, but couldnt. couldnt bring myself to. whatever lah. he happy can alreadi. so yah. all the best in ur mapling, baby.

and yah. 13 JULY. GOING TO WATCH PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN WITH YU XIU. never really watched the show. but i promised her. haha. okay. going off now. LOVES((:

6:25 AM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

MY DEAR AH MA, THIS IS FOR U.

thanks for all those years of friendship. thanks for all those words of advice and encouragement u've given me. it has helped me hell loads. thanks for encouraging me time and again when im down. thanks for ur listening ears and being there to hear all my rantings. thanks alot for being there for me always.

sometimes, i feel i havent been quite a good friend to u. i wana admit, there were times when i felt that u were quite irritating with ur rantings. i didnt dare tell u and just tolerated. sorry for all those msges which were short and not really encouraging. sorry for not being there when u need me to. and im REALLY REALLY SORRY FOR RANTING AT U ABOUT THAT SILLY LIL TEST. real sorry for everything.

THANKS ALOT, AH MA. FRIENDS FOREVER YEAH?(:
I SO LOVE EDA CHEE!!

9:42 AM

FUCK OFF. I HATE EVERYONE.

1:53 AM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

came back from chalet 2 days ago. REAL tired. not in the mood to blog these few days. and i duno why. im missing baby ALOT. and i yearn to see him. BOO)): oh well. its just one more week before school reopens. yay. ONE MORE WEEK. just one more week to go.

oh yes. and i swam for 12 hours on thursday and friday. thats why im so tired. gotta catch up on my sleep the last few days of holidays. speaking about having one more week left. my hmwk is still not done): gonna try real hard to finish it by this week. I MUST. brrrrr.

one more week left to go and im still missing baby a hell of a load. havent seen him in 3 weeks alreadi. SIGH. thank God there is just one more week. its 1.31 am, and im going off to dreamland now. see u there, my dear((: BYE PEEPS!!

I MISS YOU.

10:28 AM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

great day today. went to JB. went to the new shopping centre. duno what its called lah. some new shopping centre i've never been before. haha. bought 2 pairs of shoes and a pair of shorts. LOVE THEM((: bought some ILLEGAL stuff. heh heh. BUBBLE GUMS. bought 2 strips for baby. talking about him. havent seen him in almost 3 weeks already. MISS HIM LOADS, i wana see him soon):

oh yes. and zann said to try to paragraph my posts. cause they're too wordy. im gona try to paragraph them from now on. haha. oh and zann, call me soon alright? miss u, babe(:

ah ma, yu xiu, junie and maybe her friend coming over to my house tomoro. thank God for them. if not i'll be home alone tomoro. thanks alots peeps((: its gona be a great day tomoro. going off now. see u all again!((:

7:41 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

its getting ALOT better already. THANK GOD((: GOD DOES ANSWER PRAYER!

JESUS, MY LORD MY LIFE.

7:30 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

screaming aloud. LORD, HELP!!!!! I CAN BARELY TAKE IT ANYMORE)):

3:18 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

second post of the day((: a few more minutes to the next day alreadi. haha. cousins came over for dinner just now. fun fun. oh. and i love my grandma. she cooked white rice specially for me knowing i HATE fried rice. thank u mama. LOVES(: today was much much much much much better than yesterday. oh yah. before i forget. we changed my dog's name to RUBY. haha. she was a hell load of fun today. ran here ran there. bite here bite there. haha. she's much more stable now. thank God(: just hope she wont wake up in the middle of the night again. PRAYING HARD. haha. im very very impressed with baby. he counts every single second we never get to see each other. love u baby. promise we'll make it up yah?(: okay. that'll be all for now. God bless u people out there :P

8:45 AM

bah. i havent been sleeping well since my dog came. Lord, please help!! woke up with swollen eyes today. still swollen now. boo. schedule with the dog is super hectic. i can only use the com when she's sleeping or i wont be able to do anyting. and she bites. bites real painful. oh well. i trust that the Lord will help. its hard living with my old old folks. especially with my grandfather. he hates dogs. and he complains about everything we do with the dog. we have to sleep with the dog as she's just 6 weeks old. and he complains. u cant expect us to leave her in the living room alone all by herself right? he says dogs are dogs. humans are humans. wtf. God created humans, and DOGS. so he's like saying dogs are a level lower than us lah? idiotic thinking. whatever lah. he's moving out soon. so let him complain all he wants. just hope he understands what we're trying to do soon.nothing in particular these few days. just did some hmwk this morning and then after that, full time taking care of the dog. oh yah. and my grandfather said we cant use God's words for a dog's name. we called her blessing and he violently objected. so all because of him, we'll have to change her name. dang. i'll have to bust my brains to think of a RIGHT name for her then. Lord. help again!! oh well. hope it'll all get better soon. havent seen baby for 8 days alreadi. missing him LOADS. booo. duno when then we'll be able to see each other): I HATE THE HOLIDAYS!!

MISS U LOADS, BABY.

1:48 AM

Sunday, June 04, 2006

hello people. gonna be a long post since i havent blogged for 2 days. ALOT happened this 2 days. first of all. saturday, june the 3rd was our 1st year. i couldnt be with baby. sorry my dear. but u know smth baby? I'LL STILL LOVE U COME WHAT MAY. I LOVE U MY DEAR. MISSING U LOADS. hope there'll be more years to look forward to((: went to buy all my dog's neccesities on sat. prepared her stuff to get ready for her coming on sunday. sunday. church in the morning. lunch at carl's junior. yum yum((: walked around suntec for awhile after that. then went to collect my baby. reached there, talked to the breeders for awhile. they briefed us on what we would be expecting from her and what we should do and stuff. went home. cousins came over. whole family came over. oh yes. we decided to name her BLESSING(: she was the centre of attraction yesterday night. blessing's like a real baby. tending to her like every 10 min, feeding her every 3 hours. couldnt sleep at all last night. boo. she whined and whined. had to carry her then she went back to sleep. then the whole cycle would repeat again and again. didnt sleep a wink lah): but oh well. its part of my commitment. i would be in my late 20s before its the end of her time. but her baby period will be over. so. thank God(: it should be over in a few months. im real sorry my dear. real real sorry if i have or will ignore u in any way. and thanks alot for ur kind and sweet understanding((: i promise i'll make it up. love u loads. and oh yes. make an appointment with me if u wana come over to see blessing. heh heh((: wouldnt be able to go out for the next couple of weeks. sorry again baby. cant go out with u tomoro. im so sorry. so yah. its hapiness and sadness altogether. oh well. may God bless BLESSING, me, my whole family and u people((: will post a picture of her later on. when im not too lazy. hahaha.

I REALLY REALLY MISS U, BABY.

11:47 PM

Friday, June 02, 2006

heh heh. had fun today. meet the parents wasnt that bad. mrs selvam said good things about me. hehe. even though my results werent that good lah. my parents were still quite happy with it(: parents had to work, so came home myself. so quiet in the mrt. haha. reached home, went online until 4. prepared to go out. oh yah. i tripped over the wood panes of my toilet-.-'' FIRST time in 3 years i tripped over that thing. boo. it hurts when i walk. hurts when i press it. dang. i must be thinking of baby too much to trip over that stupid thing. boo. left home at 5. dad fetched me and sis to meet our mum. went to eat at this restuarant, OLIO DOME. nice nice. went to look for my sis's things. she bought her stuff. then went to look for my school bag. FINALLY found it. and i love it. heh heh. dad bought it. 70 bucks. thanks alot daddy((: went to taka. bought me and my mum's t shirts. i bought 2. mum bought 3. walked around somemore then went home. fun fun. THANKS ALOT mummy and daddy, love u all((: and yes, i wana thank God for giving me such good parents. my results werent that good and they were still quite happy with my results. bought things for me today somemore(: poor daughter's results were so much better than mine, but her parents dont understand at all. they were even disappointed. sigh. if only her parents would understand. and theres this one thing i dun understand. is jeslin more important, or her results more important? if there werent jeslin around, where would her results come from huh? sigh. hope they'll understand. THANK GOD FOR MY PARENTS. LOVE U ALL, REALLY((:

I MISS YOU, BABY.

8:44 AM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

ooh yeah. PAUL TWOHILL'S IN!! boring day again. everyday's boring. haha. woke up at 11 again. baby calls me a pig. grrrrr. but its true, all i do is eat and sleep this whole hols. havent went out this whole hols yet. bad bad bad. haha. have to push back the timing for collecting my dog this sat. ALL THANKS TO MY SIS and her ballet compeititions. argh! have to wait AGAIN ): holiday hmwk are the worst. have 6 of them to do. bah. all english. baby's helping me with my compo. heh heh. thank u in advance my dear!((: love u. cousins came over for dinner just now. fun fun.

meet the parents tomoro. boooo. dun wana get my results back): baby's worried. (dun worry my dear, choong wont say anything bad about u. i hope.) oh well, wish us both luck. got to go now. might blog later(:

6:41 AM