Thursday, August 31, 2006
GOD. some parents are just so. I DUNO WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THEM.
baby, cheer up alright? i know some problems are beyond our control. i'll continue praying for u. and u can be assured that i'll always, ALWAYS stand by u and be there for u((: it pains me ALOT seeing u sad. u have other reasons to smile, my dear. think of those things and smile. seeing u happy, makes me happy too. promise me u'll cheer up, alright?((:
I LOVE U, BABY((:
6:50 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
IM HAPPY. VERY VERY VERY HAPPY. the thing is finally over, i think. the whole thing was actually started by my own wrong doing. its my own fault. i made her lose her trust in me. im sad lah. but im trying my very best to help her regain her trust in me. GOD WILL HELP, i believe(:
TO THE PEOPLE THAT COMFORTED ME AND CHEERED ME UP DURING THAT TIME. THANKS ALOT. ALOT. those words really helped me ALOT. those advices really helped me too. i've made up my mind on what to do. im sticking with the group still. cause God gave me the peace and assurance that everything's gona be okay. THANK GOD((: THANKS ALOT PEOPLE!
YAY! baby can msg alreadi. FINALLY, after SOOOOOOOOOOOO long. heh((:
I MISS BABY.
7:24 AM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
im leaving everything to God now. since the matter is really outta my hands. trusting and believing that he will help. and jeslin. dun worry. i will leave if u really want me to.
6:36 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
THANKS ALOT PEOPLE. THANKS ALOT FOR CHEERING ME UP WITH UR TAGS AND ALL. ITS VERY COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT THERES SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE THERE FOR ME. although the problem isnt getting anywhere, i wana thank the people that cheered me up. too many to name. THANK U ALL((: i'll continue trusting God to solve this problem for me. like what gary said. GOD HAS HELPED ME THROUGH IT ONCE, HE WILL HELP ME THROUGH IT AGAIN((: its the other people around me that make me feel that life is still worth living. GOD IS MY MAIN REASON((:
THANK U PEOPLE.
LOVE((:
6:41 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
im feeling jealous. AND I DUNO WHAT THE HELL AM I BEING JEALOUS FOR -.- and hell i miss baby. BAH.
10:20 AM
had PFT yesterday and today. ran at a timing of 17.19. like shit. after the run, i dropped flat on the ground. haha. yuxiu had to pull me up. went back to class, muscles ached like MAD. BOO.
5 stations today. standing broad jump was like shit. dun wana talk about it. sit and reach. 35 cm only. BAH. sit ups. dun wana talk about it. INCLINED PULL UPS! I JUST HAD TO DO 1 MORE TO GET AN A!! JUST 1 MORE. BOOOOOOOOOO. shuttle run. hmm. quite happy with it. 11.8((: got a B. but my overall marks sucks. think i just passed. oh well. i still thank God for giving the strength to do everything((: now my whole body is aching like MAD.
im really unhappy being with THEM. but, i cant show it. im afraid if i show it, the whole thing will start again. like that happened 3 weeks ago. im real afraid. i feel im like a rubberband. one which is gona snap anytime. i dun like seeing the both of them so close. they keep secrets to themselves. they have suddenly become sooooooo close. they talk and talk and talk. sometimes i just duno what the hell they're talking about. funny how i can be with them and laugh and smile at them. it might be fake. even i myself duno. BAH. this thing is getting worst. DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT IM GOING THROUGH? apparently at this time, NO.
today, it happened again. SHE just went over to HER place, sat next to HER and started talking. i was feeling ROTTEN. like im some kinda idiot. i looked at her, then she just looked back at me. NO ONE KNEW HOW I FELT. in school, i laugh and smile at them and all. but. somehow i feel its not real. i dun even know for sure whether its real. i dun wana bring this whole matter up again, but i would have really snapped if i didnt. BAH. why is this happening?? WHY??)):
IS LIFE EVER BEAUTIFUL?
9:09 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
I NEED A BREATHER.
and i duno if im being petty to feel like that. YOU, and YOU are SCARED of me. u say u're scared because u're scared that i'll get angry with u all. AM I THAT FIERCE? AM I? if its because of my face, then im sorry i cant do anything about it. i know if i dun smile, i will have that -.- face. im sorry. but i cant do anything to change it. SCREW OFF if u dun like it. u dun have to put up with me if u dun want to. im human also okay. if im not happy, do i fake a smile and smile at u? do u expect me to do that? i have feelings for god sake. DAMN IT. please lah. DUN LIKE ME OR MY FACE, THEN F*** OFF. i really feel that they have come btw us. u get so close and all to them, have u ever cared about my feelings? u told HER things. u 2 keep secrets to the both of u. OKAY. i dun care. i cant care. but have u ever cared about how i feel? have u? SIGH.
well. thats all i have to say. THINK ABOUT IT.
8:21 AM
WHERE? WHERE THE HELL IS BABY?!?!?! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH )':
I FEEL LIKE FINDING THE HARDEST WALL THERE IS ON THIS WORLD AND BANG MY HEAD AGAINST IT.
FCUKSHIT.
7:46 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
changed my blogskin! COMMENTS PEOPLE!!((:
5:17 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
THERE WAS SHIT OUTSIDE MY CLASSROOM'S LEDGE TODAY. AND IT STINKED REAL BAD. 
6:30 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
BAH. SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AGAIN. WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL NEGLECTED? WHY?!?! GOD, TELL ME WHY. I DUN WANT THIS TO HAPPEN AGAIN. I DUN WANT THE WHOLE THING TO HAPPEN AGAIN. but why does it seem like its gona happen again? WHY?! recess today was the worst. i felt..... no one knows how i feel.
I JUST WANA BREAK DOWN AND CRY.
7:04 AM
maybe getting ruby was a BIG FAT mistake made by my family. she's getting kinda irritating to my family and me now. getting on our nerves. she goes around biting stuff. biting wires. in her cage, she tears her newspaper and her rubber mat! dang. it really gets on our nerves. LORD, HELP!! i really hope it wasnt a mistake getting her. BOO)):
LORD, HELP!!
oh and. GOD RULES! he restored my internet just now! i was going bonkers over my stupid internet. i was talking to myself. i wanted to take and knife and go after the stupid internet people. HAHA. i was mad. REAL mad. PRAYED. GOD RESTORED IT! YAY! GOD REIGNS((: I LOVE GOD!!((:
i love baby too! heeeee((:
5:45 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
TODAY ROCKS!
met yuxiu at aljunied mrt at about 12. we thought of going to town, but then since yuxiu has never been to marina square IN HER WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, we decided to go there. haha. baby was there with his friends also. but didnt meet them. saw them only outside the cinema. we were watching the same show! THE FAST AND FURIOUS, TOYKO DRIFT. haha. ME AND YUXIU DIDNT PURPOSELY CHOOSE THE SAME SHOW AND TIME AH. just decided to watch it since my cousins said it was nice. hehe.
the show was okay okay lah. the DRIFTING, WOAH! VERY VERY NICE AND COOL. han was cool. dun like dk. such a bad man. haha. went bowling with baby, bk and xin yu. didnt bowl cause i couldnt. BAH. i would have if i could lah. havent bowled for duno how long alreadi. oh well. wil bowl soon. baby won the game! total up the score then he won. happy for him!((: went home after that. yuxiu and him keep quarrelling. damn funny lah the both of them! haha. fun and tiring day((: THANK GOD FOR TODAY. IT TURNED OUT VERY VERY WELL!
LOVE U, BABY.
6:53 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
another post for baby(:
BABY, IM NOT BLAMING U FOR UR CHOICE. I UNDERSTAND. SOMETIMES WE JUST NEED TO HANG OUT WITH OUR OWN FRIENDS. I NEED TO. U NEED IT TOO. IM SORRY. REALLY REALLY SORRY FOR BEING SO PETTY WITH U JUST NOW. SORRY FOR GETTING SO ANGRY WITH U JUST BECAUSE OF THAT. I COULDNT HELP BUT TO GET ANGRY WHEN I HEARD THAT. u know what lah. IM JUST REALLY SORRY.
HOPE U'LL ENJOY URSELF TODAY! DUN WORRY ABOUT ME. IM GONA HAVE MY OWN FUN TIME TOO. HEHE! PRAY WE'LL BOTH ENJOY OURSELVES!((: WE'LL MAKE IT UP SOON, YES?
I LOVE U, BABY.
ALWAYS.
i can never carry on without u.
stay in my life, okay?
10:06 AM
wondering to myself. WILL TOMORO BE A GOOD DAY? i hope so, pray that it'll be a good day also. after all that happened just now. WILL IT BE? pray it will be.
anyway. the actual reason for my post is to dedicate something to my dear ah ma, EDA CHEE!(:
AH MA. this is for u.
THANKS ALOT FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ALL THESE YEARS. FROM P5 TILL NOW, U'VE NEVER FAILED TO ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME. U HAVE BEEN MY ROLE MODEL ALL THIS WHILE. U'RE SUCH A FAITHFUL FOLLOWER OF GOD. FOR THAT, I ADMIRE U. AH MA, THANKS ALOT FOR LETTING ME CALL U THAT DAY. I REALLY NEEDED IT. I GUESS ONLY U KNOW HOW I FELT SINCE U'VE ALSO GONE THROUGH THAT KINDA THING. IT SUCKS, EH? ITS ALL OVER NOW, I HOPE. THANK GOD FOR HELPING ME THROUGH!((:
AH MA, THANK U FOR ALL THOSE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT WHENEVER IM DOWN AND OUT. U'VE BEEN MY BESTEST FRIEND. AND WILL ALWAYS BE!
I LOVE U, AH MA.
CONTINUE TO ROCK ON!
FRIENDS FOR ETERNITY, YES?((:
MOST IMPORTANTLY, I WANA THANK GOD FOR PUTTING THIS SPECIAL FRIEND IN MY LIFE. SHE HAS BEEN MY PILLAR OF STRENGTH WHEN IM DOWN. MY ENCOURAGEMENT. MY BESTEST FRIEND. MY AH MA!!
I LOVE MY AH MA!!((:
GOD REIGNS!!
9:39 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
I WANT TO GO OUT. I WANT TO SEE BABY. MAN, I MISS HIM SO BAD)):
BAH. TEARS )':
11:03 PM
BABY, CHEER UP ALRIGHT? remember. im always here if u need me to. GOD is always there for u too((: CHEER UP CHEER UP!! i admit, i really duno how to help u with what u're going through. but i'll always be here!
I LOVE U, BABY.
ALWAYS.
6:40 AM
Friday, August 04, 2006
my day today.
STUPIDEST HOME ECONS PRACTICAL EVER
WENT TO WATCH CLICK! with yuxiu. BABY didnt go, and i was FREEZING in the cinema! ): but it was still a very good show. it teaches a great deal of things. GUYS should watch it. see what happens when they put work or anything else before their own family. see what happens to adam sandler in the movie in the end. GO WATCH, PEOPLE!((:
WENT TO ROLEX TO WAIT FOR MY AUNT. WENT DINNER WITH HER AND MY UNCLE AT FOO HOUSE! yum yum((:
CAME HOME. MY MUM'S FRIEND BROUGHT THE THINGS BACK FOR US! MUM BOUGHT A WATCH AND 2 T-SHIRTS FOR ME. NICE NICE!! THANK U, MUMMY((:
yup. thats my day today! overall, quite a good day((:
BAH. THANKSGIVING TOMORO. HAVE TO REACH SCHOOL AT 8.45. WEAR THAT STUPID GOWN AND SHOE. THE LIGHT SHINING RIGHT INTO MY FACE WHEN IM SINGING. BOO HOO HOO!
oh well. PRAY HARD! thats all for now((: LOVE!
I LOVE U, MY DEAR.
8:33 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
SOME KINDA SHIT IS THIS. THE MOST EMBARASSING DAY OF MY LIFE! ARGH. I FELT LIKE DIGGING A HOLE IN THE GROUND AND BURYING MYSELF IN IT. BAH.
GOD, IS THIS UR PLAN FOR THIS TO HAPPEN? it all seemed so coincidental. TELL ME, LORD.
6:16 AM
You have my thanks.
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