with all my heart.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

off to bangkok. back in 4 days. :D and D: BAH. im alreadi missing my dear so much. 4 days..im so so dead. URGH. just how much will i miss him.. i'll just have to go and TRY to enjoy myself. i know my mind will be filled with him all the time though..oh well. just have to look forward to next monday.

bye people! till next monday, tata for now((:

<33s!

6:59 AM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

i notice i dun usually blog on weekdays. HAHA. all thanks to my late coming back home almost everyday. HEH. and i can dun touch the computer for like a few days in a row. i wouldnt be able to do that in the hols. oh but thank God, i can amazingly restrain myself from the computer now! HAHAHA.

THINGS happened today. the good and bad. dun feel like talking about it yet((:

dun feel like blogging for now. see ya'll sometime soon.
<33s!

5:23 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

and this is how my heart breaks.

my family. my dearest. my life. i commit all these to u, daddy God. i know that whatever we are all going through now will all go away with u. we'll all make it through safe and sound. with no adversaries or evil occurances, oh Lord. my family, Lord, is in ur hands. im leaving this family to u. its in ur hands to do whatever u want to do with us((: and we all know that whatever u do and plan for this family, its gona be good! good for all of us :D as for my dearest and me. Lord, u know whats best for us. this relationship is in ur hands((: and as for my own life, i surrender my all to u, daddy God. in all this i pray, in JESUS name. AMEN! :DDD

5:56 AM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

school. eat. go home. homework, if i have. sleep, if im really tired. bathe. dinner. computer and tv time. sleep. and then the whole cycle repeats itself. i have no life for goodness sake. BAH. oh. i missed out smth. go to school, seeing baby is the prize of the day. if not school will just be lame shit. wait wait. i see him like almost the whole time in class. okay..im talking shit now. im going off now before i really turn shitty.

5:23 AM

Friday, January 05, 2007

i AM going to hang on no matter what life throws at me. cause i just realised that no matter how much complaining i do, things wont change a bit. school has been crap. but im not gona care so much. im just gona live for God, myself and my dearest. and i WILL hang on.

friends in class, not my close ones. except for a few. im gona try very hard not to care so much about that although i know friends mean ALOT to me. i thought my class this year would be an interesting one. but turns out..oh well. i wont say a thing about it. gona sadden me.

my heart's been sick or smth for the past 2 days. i had completely no feelings for practically anyone. and to admit, even my feelings for my dearest turned cold. and i couldnt even get myself to pray. i just poured everything out to God. and yesterday i was stupid enough to ask God for a fever so that i wont need to go to school and face the people and the stupid and lame teachers.

haha. ahhhhhhhhh. God helped. im so glad he made me wake up! and made me realised that complaining aint gona change anything. oh and my dearest. been complaining to him about everything. from school, the people and right down to my hair. HEH. thank God for him, really. if not i think i would've made some rash decision that i myself wont know what i was doing. THANK U, DEAR. LOVE LOVE LOVE!((:

and students that may be feeling down about school or other things. school has just started. im not really adjusted back to my old self yet, but im sure i will. and u people will too, for sure((: life in school is gona be a short one. so just cherish the time spent. before u know it, it'll be gone.

and zann. this for u. sorry i had to delete the previous part about u. i thought my blogger had a problem. but it turns out it didnt -.- hahaha. sorry!
THANK U SO MUCH! thank u for always being there for me whenever i need u. thank u for always lending that listening ear when i need one. thank u for always listening to me complain and all. yes, we dun go out that often (which i think we should), but u're always there((: thank u, sweetie! life just wouldnt be the same without u. and and, we must go get our pspppppppppppp! :D u're one great GREAT friend. LOVE U ALOTTTTTTTTTTT!((:

8:08 AM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

SCHOOL SUCKS.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
MY CLASS TEACHERS SUCK.
I DUN HAVE A FIXED PARTNER TO GO WITH IN CLASS.
UPPER SEC SUCKS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD, HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hair grow, hair grow!

5:33 AM