with all my heart.

Friday, January 05, 2007

i AM going to hang on no matter what life throws at me. cause i just realised that no matter how much complaining i do, things wont change a bit. school has been crap. but im not gona care so much. im just gona live for God, myself and my dearest. and i WILL hang on.

friends in class, not my close ones. except for a few. im gona try very hard not to care so much about that although i know friends mean ALOT to me. i thought my class this year would be an interesting one. but turns out..oh well. i wont say a thing about it. gona sadden me.

my heart's been sick or smth for the past 2 days. i had completely no feelings for practically anyone. and to admit, even my feelings for my dearest turned cold. and i couldnt even get myself to pray. i just poured everything out to God. and yesterday i was stupid enough to ask God for a fever so that i wont need to go to school and face the people and the stupid and lame teachers.

haha. ahhhhhhhhh. God helped. im so glad he made me wake up! and made me realised that complaining aint gona change anything. oh and my dearest. been complaining to him about everything. from school, the people and right down to my hair. HEH. thank God for him, really. if not i think i would've made some rash decision that i myself wont know what i was doing. THANK U, DEAR. LOVE LOVE LOVE!((:

and students that may be feeling down about school or other things. school has just started. im not really adjusted back to my old self yet, but im sure i will. and u people will too, for sure((: life in school is gona be a short one. so just cherish the time spent. before u know it, it'll be gone.

and zann. this for u. sorry i had to delete the previous part about u. i thought my blogger had a problem. but it turns out it didnt -.- hahaha. sorry!
THANK U SO MUCH! thank u for always being there for me whenever i need u. thank u for always lending that listening ear when i need one. thank u for always listening to me complain and all. yes, we dun go out that often (which i think we should), but u're always there((: thank u, sweetie! life just wouldnt be the same without u. and and, we must go get our pspppppppppppp! :D u're one great GREAT friend. LOVE U ALOTTTTTTTTTTT!((:

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