with all my heart.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

COUNTDOWN COUNTDOWN!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

6:22 AM

Saturday, February 24, 2007

am i feeling the impact of it? am i gona go on an emotional wreck again? is everything gona fall apart? i pray not. i really do.

darn. i miss dear dear ALOT. i hate. i repeat. i HATE days without him. we've been spending alot of time together recently, and it sucks when we have to part. weekends, 2 full days without him. SUCKS LIKE HELL. i think it explains why i've been feeling so monotonous. no feelings whatsoever. and he cant sms. thats the thing. BAH!

anyway. celebrated my birthday with my family yesterday. heh. kinda early lah. my birthday's on the 28th of feb. *HINT HINT* hahahaha :D coming wednesday. remember my present people! HEE. pictures will be uploaded later((: will be spending that day with my usuals((: ah ma wanted to come, but her school finishes at 3.20)): nvm nvm. come to my chalet and i'll be VERY VERY VERY happy. hehe.

my mum's gona move on march 17. i duno how im feeling about that. but oh well. DADDY GOD, IM LEAVING EVERYTHING TO U.

goodbye for now. 3 days to my birthday! WOOT!
<33s.

10:30 PM

Friday, February 16, 2007

thank God life has been turning for the better! thank God for dearest! thank God for yx and kj! thank God that me and my dearest succeeded in THAT particular smth! HEE. thank God for my other friends! thank God im learning to accept the fact that my mum's gona move out! i should be sad right? but im not. and i really really thank God for that. maybe its because i dun really feel the impact of it now. i just wana enjoy the time im left with my mum now and im just trying to stay strong((:

thank God for the people that have never stopped encouraging me. thank God for THE GREATEST EVER BOYFRIEND ANYONE COULD HAVE! :D im that SUPER SUPER SUPER blessed one to have him as a boyf! HEEEEEEEEE. this year's valentine's day wont be a valentine's day without him. thank u dear, for giving me that one VERY VERY VERY enjoyable and memorable day((: LOVE U LOADS! its the best best valentine's anyone could ever ask for((: and the present. by far my dear, thats the BESTEST gift i've ever received in my life! heh. thanks ALOT dearest! LOVE!

life by far has been going rather well. i pray and i believe it will stay this way((: or go even better :D

7:12 AM

Monday, February 12, 2007

sorry people! i know. i know i've not been updating for about 10 days. SORRY! heh.

life has been filled with the ups and the downs. now for the down part first. the problem btw my parents is well. going to end soon. and those kinda ending, u should know. im not going into any detail about this yet, cause its not very nice to talk about it. and whenever i think about it, i'll get super down and upset. so yeah. no details yet(: and then the stress in school. those crazy teachers of my class can really drive me crazy. drive my class crazy as well. the work in school, my studies, my friends etc. the stress is just going up up up. even for my dearest and kj. life just hasnt been good for all of us. EXCEPT FOR KUEH YU XIU! she's just one happy go lucky person. no problems whatsoever. well, thats a good thing i guess. good for u, my dear friend((:

now, the happy part! YAY. celebrated dearest's birthday last saturday. his first birthday we spent together :D with my dear friend, yuxiu and kj as well. had SO SO SO SO SO much fun! really. heh. i didnt feel that happy in duno how long. ever since my parents erh. had a problem, i think. in short, i was just SUPER UBER happy :D baby too! bought this puma watch for him. WHOO. i love it so much myself! HEE. and then went for sakae. those 2 boys. ate 10 plates of salmon sushi. my goodness. my and yx were frightened by them. BRRRRR. scary! those lines on the salmon. EEYER, scary scary. but its baby's birthday. so everything he decided((: i have a picture of ahem and ahem erh. aheming. HAHAHAHA! i shall be a nice and good friend and not post the picture. if not, i'll be SO dead. and they will be SO SO SO dead as well. HEH.

and yes, yx. u're one difficult DIFFICULT person to find clothes, shoes and all for. SUPERRRRRRR difficult! BOO! HAHA.

well, life as u can see has been really contradicting. sometimes i really really hope time can just stop or slow down. im so so tired. physically and mentally. i just wana sleep and sleep and sleep. but i'll never find the time to do that though /= life is just going on and on and on, like once u stop, u'll miss out on alot. but its okay. i'll just take what life throws at me and throw it back((:

i still have God, dear dear and my friends. well, i cant say family now. because i really dun wana rely on them. this family is gona break up in such a short time. i dun even know what will happen when my parents _____. im just gona rely on God and my dearest. cause these 2, i know for sure they'll always always be there((: oh yes. not forgetting my friends too! heh. i just thank God for all of them.

this is life for me. how bout you?

5:01 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007

oh my gosh..God knows how long i've last updated. HAHA. okay. nvm about that anyway. well, life has been really harsh to me. really. i cried today. 2nd time in school. BAH.

they are just certain things that i cant talk about now. dearest has asked me to look at it from the bright side. and try to smile when i think of that matter. i've tried, but failed. and failed badly that i even cried. i knew i wouldnt be able to take it much longer, but i didnt expect it to be so soon. i knew about the whole problem the whole time, but never did i expect it to be so bad. never would i expect this family to break. never would i expect this whole thing to happen.

but oh well..what can i do? what can i say? i dun have a say in the lives of those adults. and i cant do a shit about it. so why am i even upset over it for? HA HA. im contradicting my myself. im sad yet im not. im talking nonsense. so im gona stop here before i turn crazy. forgive me if i dun update so often. bye people.

6:59 AM