my life story

2007-09-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

DOG'S HERE DOG'S HERE!! :D name's most probably mocca. he will NOT turn out like ruby in Jesus name. (: will be updated with pictures on a later date.

ling, he's never gona take ur place in my heart. I LOVE U. (:

2007-08-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

i just realised my blog is dead. LOL. :D

it shall be updated SOON!

-rach, out.

<3

2007-07-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

it feels nice when a family goes out together yeah? i felt that today (: and i had ear candy today. all the sales people crowding around me, my sis and my mum. all saying she's soooooo young and they thought my dad was her friend! :D HAHA.

i know you love me.

2007-07-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

i don't know how to tell you how i feel. it's like all bottled up inside. i miss you. i want you back so much, yet i don't know how to tell u. savvy?

2007-06-28T04:51:00.000-07:00

this week just aint our week. art's night art's night art's night! u people better come for the concert! :D HAHAHAHA. its all our hard work, so enjoy!

this week cut shorts timing of seeing ling! ): not our week, thats why. and the bloody transport back to school. why in the world must we have that? i know they have good intentions. dun wan us to squeeze with the other people. but, dun they give us a choice whether we want or not? RAHHHHH. nvm. we'll persevere on. 2 more days and it's all over! (:

STARFRUIT, JACKFRUIT AND DURIAN! :DD
okay, im high now. better go off before i go crazy. HAHAHAHA! toodles people! and I LOVE U LING! :DDD

2007-06-24T05:37:00.000-07:00

she really doesnt care. dont u have any respect for ur brother?

bloody hell. school is starting tomoro. happy or sad, i really got no idea. good thing is the school's back to it's original place. much easier to get there and back. but damn. 1 month is over in an instant. it all looked so yesterday. oh well. looks like its back to the old routine. no more waking up late and going out!

at least i get to see ling almost everyday now (:

2007-06-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

HELLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

i shall post more pictures today and less words. enjoy!

she's like so whatever.

THE LEGENDS WATER CHALETS is LOVE!

pardon the unglamness of me. this is just being childhood deprived :D

and, pardon my cousin. HAHA. but the following pictures shows how our chalet looks like (:

port dickson was LOVEEEEEEEEE! thank God for that short trip. although i left ling alone for 3 days ): making up session tomoro yah ling? (:

and for ur information, this is the FIRST time i cam-whored. HAHAHAHA :D catch me in the right mood and i'll cam-whore with u!

2007-06-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

hello.

went to the airport to send eda off just now. ate dinner with her family and catched up with her a lil bit. we're still going next next tuesday! :D
ah ma, catch up with u BIG TIME then yah? im gona miss u HELL LOADS!

dad came to pick me up then back to siglap. was super uber bored there, i msged ling. but he didnt reply. but it's okay, i still LOVE him ((: so i took my headphones and listened to the music in my phone which hasnt been updated for the longest time. that was how bored i was .__.

had lunch at serangoon before i went to the airport. went to the pet's station there and saw ALOT of puppies. omgoodness. there was this pekignese mixed with pomeranian. DARN cute! i'll post the picture up the next time. the puppy turned out white! :D HAHA!

so yah. this is about my whole day. and sending eda off was kinda emotional for me. cause i hadnt seen her in like i duno how long and now im seeing her to send her off. and 1 whole week no form of communication with her! ): but oh well. she'll come back eventually. and im still meeting her :D

okay. before i go, i have to put this into my post. i dreamt of smth. smth wierd? scary? i dreamt MS LOH WAS SACKED BY THE SCHOOL. it may be joy to some of the choir members and it may be devastation for some. she's actually kinda nice. i've learnt to appreciate her more. ALOT more than last time. everytime i came for choir, i would wish so much that she'll be sick and wouldnt come for practice. kinda cruel, i know. HAHA. but what to do? this is student's natural behaviour towards to some teachers! :D HAHAHA!

okay. off i go. post is becoming too wordy. toodles people! God bless (:

2007-06-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

so choir is finally over after 5 times of gruelling practices (: its resuming on the 18th though. but its at the new school! new school, YAY! means it's easier to get to school :D

but tuition is starting, AGAIN. and im not excited about it at all. i dun even have the mood to pick up the book. do u expect me to study now? NO. i cant do it, if u know what kind of person i am. holidays and u expect me to study, u're killing me that way. whatever lah. i dun care anymore. the most i wont be paying attention, thats all.

i dun think my parents are doing that well with each other. my dad seems upset with my mum. he says he isnt, but i can tell from the way he speaks to her and all, its not him. but what can i do? it's all the adults problems. im SOOOOOOOO glad i dun have a problem with ling! (:

moving on.

thank God i still get to see ling quite often and that keeps me going. although this holiday isnt that good with choir and tuition and stuff, he keeps me going. with seeing him almost ALMOST everyday (: love u, ling! mwahh!

so yah, good and bad.
(: and ): , once again.

2007-06-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

hellooooooooooo!

holidays havent been that bad except for the choir practices, where time crawls when we're in that room. HAHA. hence, making me feel like shit yesterday. but overcomed it eventually, thank God and thank ling! :D

shopping with my mum at vivo later!

1 more day left to 2 years! :D cant wait!

yay! im happy :D

it's you, it's you.

i love you, ling.

2007-05-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

holidays.

choir.

trying very hard to meet ling everyday, which is almost impossible.

going out with eda.

going out with zann.

go to sentosa.

go to escape.

go to wild wild wet.

i miss ling. ALOT.

i HATE and i LOVE the holidays.

(: and ):

2007-05-18T19:04:00.000-07:00

someone tell me how long i've not blogged. HAHA :D hell long yeah? sorry people!

exams over!

shufeng's bbq today!

the last 3 days were LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE!

choir resuming next monday!?!?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...what the hell.
was supposed to go celebrate muthu's b'day. omgosh. choir on her b'day. how LUCKY can she get? i pity u, babe. nvm. we shall go on tuesday then (:

last week of school next week! (: and ):

I LOVE YOU, DEAR!

you're everything.

2007-05-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

chinese and social studies papers were quite okay, thank God. although i finished the paper 1 min before time! :D maths paper 1 tomoro, wish me all the best people! (: exams, hurry and be overrrrrrrr!!

i can't live without you.
can't breathe without you.

MY DEAR BOLSTER HOLDER, I LOVE YOU! :D

2007-05-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

english paper was easy today. i pray the other papers would be manageable as well. /=

mug hard everyone!

MY BOLSTER HOLDER. <333

its just this mixture of feelings, i cant describe.

2007-05-05T03:16:00.000-07:00

helloooooooooooooo!

long time since i've posted. in my mum's house now (: oh and i chopped my hair off nicely :D almost 50 bucks haircut, it had better be nice hor? heh. i love the salon, NEXT!

the exams start on monday. mug HARD, people. talking about it. i havent finished revising. oh well. must do it fast!

okay. thats all for now. toodles! :D

I LOVE MY BOLSTER HOLDER! <3333333

2007-04-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

today is LOVE! the 2 hours at the mrt station is LOVEEEEEEEEE! DEAR IS LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D I LOVE YOU!

yi zhi cong tian hor! *only we 2 know what it is, yah?* HEH HEH :D

2007-04-26T07:18:00.000-07:00

some not very nice things happened in class today. im just glad it's all over. we have to see each other for the next 1 and a half years. please people. try to get along. its not nice to see people doing what they did today. it just saddens the whole class. oh well. it's over alreadi. shan't harp on it anymore (: nobody should.

the pain in my back is still there now, but im glad u all owned up. mistakes are a part of life, so no worries! (:

2007-04-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

i was just thinking. and dear, what would i do without you around?

2007-04-25T07:46:00.000-07:00

man. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. :D

for as long as eternity.
HUGS!

2007-04-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD :D i can go back to the health promotion board in a year's time instead of half a year now (: means that curvey back got better! YES! went to do an x-ray there and the doctor told me and my mum that. im supposed to do more exercises with my back. HAHA. funny how i can that when i can walk for a few hours and then my back would be aching like hell. but oh well. Daddy God will heal it (:

shopping with my mum after that. im kinda used to her not being at home now, but i cant help but miss her sometimes. and really hope she'll come back one day. which in jesus name she will (: she bought her roxy white bag and i didnt buy anything much. but i still enjoyed our outing (:

im happy and im looking forward to tomoro :D

cause my life with you means everything.

2007-04-18T06:16:00.000-07:00

damn it. i hate the period. i hate the cramps. i hate the pms. i hate the mood swings! but what the heck. its for the future. so yeah. TOLERATE TOLERATE TOLERATE.

major pms today. but i held dear back. HEH :D

2007-04-14T08:20:00.000-07:00

mid-year exams. mid-year exams. so much to do, so much to catch up, so little time! BOO! but nvm. Daddy God will help (: plus dear too. study together! YAY. at least i'll study. heh.

yes! got my daughtry's album today :D so its off my list.

daryl- tomoro.
me-today.
LOLLLLLLLLLLL! HAHAHAHAHA.

wont be updating this blog that often cause of the mid-year's preparation. so until the next post, TOODLES! :D
<3333333

2007-04-10T05:23:00.000-07:00

cough cough cough. cough still havent gone away! aiyah. but who cares lah. HEH.

i have no idea what to post about. seriously. hmm..let me think.

RAHH. nothing comes to my mind. but these 2 are for dear and ah ma.
DEAR: please PLEASE do not scared me like that again kay? my heart and tears almost fell. my heart is weak one u know? HEH HEH. but in anyway, i still love u :D

AH MA: we shall go out on the 16th, yes? and then we will catch up with each other. and u owe me 2 presents! HEEEEEE :D i miss u ALOT, call me once u see this alright? we shall decide on where to go. <3333333!

2007-04-04T05:48:00.000-07:00

22nd month and still counting! :D YAY! LOVE U, DEAR (: thank u for everything <33

school has been so so. was i stupid to choose not to be in syf when i was given a choice? all my cca points. but who cares now lah. my points are like helpless, so no difference anyway (: and i wont dwell on the past alreadi. bad or good choice, i've decided to move on. had to put the 3 of them into consideration. so yeah. decision was made not to join syf. stupid or not, i duno. but oh well. its over (:

shopping yesterday! bought a bimbo bag. HAHAHA. bought ubm slippers. made my posb card FINALLY! heh. :D thank u daddy for everything!

shopping again this friday with mummy and auntie. YAY!

life life life, what more do you bring?
at the beginning with you.
i love you, dear.

2007-04-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

this new month will bring better days for US! lets be positive :D

LOVE.

2007-03-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

i wont dare say life has been a bitch because it hasnt really really been. although the school work and syf have been pounding me with stress. but then again, i duno whats wrong with me. laughter in me isnt really true. sometimes i just laugh things off because i have nothing much to say. and my laughter and smile only comes out truly when im with dearest. and thank God for him, if not, life will truly truly be a BITCH. and of course, God has been there every step of the way and i thank him for that (:

i havent been doing homework and things related to school lately and i really think i should start doing and caring about school a lil bit more. things around me in school are sometimes oblivious to me, sadly. the mid-years are coming and i really cant fail this time round. AND I WONT, in jesus name. God'll help. but i must do my part too, yeah?

my left side of the body isnt functioning well. wrist and ankle both injured. and i havent really been that happy lately only again when im with dearest (:

i must and i will keep to that promise i made u, dear. rest be assured i wont break it (: thank u for everything. I LOVE U.

thank God for everything he's done.
<33

2007-03-23T07:42:00.000-07:00

I LOVE U, DEAR. thank u for everything(:

hugs and kisses.
LOVEEEEEEEE :D

life is great!

2007-03-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

chalet was a blast! :D and D:. :D cause it was really really enjoyable! heh. the first night ever with the pig's husband. hee. enjoyable enjoyable. didnt really get to sleep until about 6 plus but never the less i enjoyed it like anything :D only the part where i became mosquito's food. i had 20 mosquito bites... .___.!!! HAHA.

D: because some people couldnt make it. eda and jialing! u 2 were very very much missed!

6 Di people! glad to see u all again! shocking how much some of u have changed((: hope u all enjoyed the chalet and had fun!

ZANN! thank u thank u for that night of talking. really needed to catch up and really needed ur advice. thank u for that 50 min talk, babe. thank u for all that advice :D we'll study together really soon and catch up, yes?((: LOVE U, BABE :D

THE PIG'S HUSBAND! oh oh. zann's son! HEH. thank u, dear. for everything. thank u for the 2 days. thank u for ur kisses! HEEEEEE :D MWAHH! 4 days without u leh. torturous. but we'll pull through, yes?((: LOVE U ALOT, DEAR!

and and. the rest of the people that made my chalet possible. THANK U ALL VERY MUCH. LOVEEEEEEEEE :D

oh yes. bro! thank u for ur GREEN BANANA! LOL. damn cute! and ur girlf ah. havent given me my present!

yay! happy happy. THANK U, DADDY GOD :D

2007-03-07T00:48:00.000-08:00

happy? yes? no? let it go? yes? no? never say die? yes? no? yes no yes no, i duno. HAHAHA. anyway. *on request from DEARRRRRR* my tummy is my biggest weakness and he's using that to make me smile everyday :D

DADDY GOD. ITS IN UR HANDS NOW.

2007-03-06T04:47:00.000-08:00

it's killing me slowly.

2007-03-01T04:29:00.000-08:00

HELLO! im happy. heh :D

birthday yesterday! WOOT! the day started off GREAT! woke up with 5 smses of happy birthdays((: went to school. zann was the first to wish me and give me a BIG hug((: it started my day off right. heh. thank u, babe! jeslin wished me next. and then we waited for yu yi to come with my present. hehe. didnt do pe cause of that FREAKING patch test which made me itch like MAD for 2 days. but thank God, i can take it off today. if not, seriously. i'll explode from the itch. HAHA. okay. lets skip and go on to recess!

i went to change with charmaine. came back to class, xiuping and some of the class people started singing happy birthday! soooooooooooooo sweet, i tell u. i was almost moved to tears. heh. i'll never forget that. charmaine babe got the cake early in the morning and put it in the cupboard! surprise surprise when i saw. heh. THANK U EVERYONE! LOVE! HEE. cut cake. i cut 3 cakes this birthday :D i LOVEEEEEEEEE this birthday. thank u Daddy God((: then then then. dear dear came up with the idea of smashing cake on my face. HAHAHA. they didnt manage to smash the whole cake in my face, but they did get cream all over my right face and hair. HAHA. my hair was sticky the whole day! hahaha. wasnt angry with them at all. i had FUN! hee. THANK U ALL AGAIN :D man. im so happy. heh.

after school, went to suntec to eat. swensens. my treat :D with my usuals. dearest, and the couple! heh. we had UBER fun! hahaha. im so happy i cant type properly! HAHAHAHA. bill came up to 102. quite okay considering the fact we ate that gigantic earthquake((: THANK U ALL YET AGAIN :D i enjoyed yesterday alot! LOVE. and and. A BIG THANK U TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND FOR THE HUGS! I LOVE U ALL :D *dear dear, dun get jealous.* HEH HEH HEH! I LOVE U ALOT ALOT ALOT! <33! smile!((:

now for pictures that are due((:

okay. done! see u around. goodbye!
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

life has been great so far. except for that part. Daddy God, please make it right. and i know this hapiness in me might just disappear right from me. but i know u'll help me through((:

2007-02-27T06:22:00.000-08:00

COUNTDOWN COUNTDOWN!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2007-02-24T22:30:00.000-08:00

am i feeling the impact of it? am i gona go on an emotional wreck again? is everything gona fall apart? i pray not. i really do.

darn. i miss dear dear ALOT. i hate. i repeat. i HATE days without him. we've been spending alot of time together recently, and it sucks when we have to part. weekends, 2 full days without him. SUCKS LIKE HELL. i think it explains why i've been feeling so monotonous. no feelings whatsoever. and he cant sms. thats the thing. BAH!

anyway. celebrated my birthday with my family yesterday. heh. kinda early lah. my birthday's on the 28th of feb. *HINT HINT* hahahaha :D coming wednesday. remember my present people! HEE. pictures will be uploaded later((: will be spending that day with my usuals((: ah ma wanted to come, but her school finishes at 3.20)): nvm nvm. come to my chalet and i'll be VERY VERY VERY happy. hehe.

my mum's gona move on march 17. i duno how im feeling about that. but oh well. DADDY GOD, IM LEAVING EVERYTHING TO U.

goodbye for now. 3 days to my birthday! WOOT!
<33s.

2007-02-16T07:12:00.000-08:00

thank God life has been turning for the better! thank God for dearest! thank God for yx and kj! thank God that me and my dearest succeeded in THAT particular smth! HEE. thank God for my other friends! thank God im learning to accept the fact that my mum's gona move out! i should be sad right? but im not. and i really really thank God for that. maybe its because i dun really feel the impact of it now. i just wana enjoy the time im left with my mum now and im just trying to stay strong((:

thank God for the people that have never stopped encouraging me. thank God for THE GREATEST EVER BOYFRIEND ANYONE COULD HAVE! :D im that SUPER SUPER SUPER blessed one to have him as a boyf! HEEEEEEEEE. this year's valentine's day wont be a valentine's day without him. thank u dear, for giving me that one VERY VERY VERY enjoyable and memorable day((: LOVE U LOADS! its the best best valentine's anyone could ever ask for((: and the present. by far my dear, thats the BESTEST gift i've ever received in my life! heh. thanks ALOT dearest! LOVE!

life by far has been going rather well. i pray and i believe it will stay this way((: or go even better :D

2007-02-12T05:01:00.000-08:00

sorry people! i know. i know i've not been updating for about 10 days. SORRY! heh.

life has been filled with the ups and the downs. now for the down part first. the problem btw my parents is well. going to end soon. and those kinda ending, u should know. im not going into any detail about this yet, cause its not very nice to talk about it. and whenever i think about it, i'll get super down and upset. so yeah. no details yet(: and then the stress in school. those crazy teachers of my class can really drive me crazy. drive my class crazy as well. the work in school, my studies, my friends etc. the stress is just going up up up. even for my dearest and kj. life just hasnt been good for all of us. EXCEPT FOR KUEH YU XIU! she's just one happy go lucky person. no problems whatsoever. well, thats a good thing i guess. good for u, my dear friend((:

now, the happy part! YAY. celebrated dearest's birthday last saturday. his first birthday we spent together :D with my dear friend, yuxiu and kj as well. had SO SO SO SO SO much fun! really. heh. i didnt feel that happy in duno how long. ever since my parents erh. had a problem, i think. in short, i was just SUPER UBER happy :D baby too! bought this puma watch for him. WHOO. i love it so much myself! HEE. and then went for sakae. those 2 boys. ate 10 plates of salmon sushi. my goodness. my and yx were frightened by them. BRRRRR. scary! those lines on the salmon. EEYER, scary scary. but its baby's birthday. so everything he decided((: i have a picture of ahem and ahem erh. aheming. HAHAHAHA! i shall be a nice and good friend and not post the picture. if not, i'll be SO dead. and they will be SO SO SO dead as well. HEH.

and yes, yx. u're one difficult DIFFICULT person to find clothes, shoes and all for. SUPERRRRRRR difficult! BOO! HAHA.

well, life as u can see has been really contradicting. sometimes i really really hope time can just stop or slow down. im so so tired. physically and mentally. i just wana sleep and sleep and sleep. but i'll never find the time to do that though /= life is just going on and on and on, like once u stop, u'll miss out on alot. but its okay. i'll just take what life throws at me and throw it back((:

i still have God, dear dear and my friends. well, i cant say family now. because i really dun wana rely on them. this family is gona break up in such a short time. i dun even know what will happen when my parents _____. im just gona rely on God and my dearest. cause these 2, i know for sure they'll always always be there((: oh yes. not forgetting my friends too! heh. i just thank God for all of them.

this is life for me. how bout you?

2007-02-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

oh my gosh..God knows how long i've last updated. HAHA. okay. nvm about that anyway. well, life has been really harsh to me. really. i cried today. 2nd time in school. BAH.

they are just certain things that i cant talk about now. dearest has asked me to look at it from the bright side. and try to smile when i think of that matter. i've tried, but failed. and failed badly that i even cried. i knew i wouldnt be able to take it much longer, but i didnt expect it to be so soon. i knew about the whole problem the whole time, but never did i expect it to be so bad. never would i expect this family to break. never would i expect this whole thing to happen.

but oh well..what can i do? what can i say? i dun have a say in the lives of those adults. and i cant do a shit about it. so why am i even upset over it for? HA HA. im contradicting my myself. im sad yet im not. im talking nonsense. so im gona stop here before i turn crazy. forgive me if i dun update so often. bye people.

2007-01-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

off to bangkok. back in 4 days. :D and D: BAH. im alreadi missing my dear so much. 4 days..im so so dead. URGH. just how much will i miss him.. i'll just have to go and TRY to enjoy myself. i know my mind will be filled with him all the time though..oh well. just have to look forward to next monday.

bye people! till next monday, tata for now((:

<33s!

2007-01-17T05:23:00.000-08:00

i notice i dun usually blog on weekdays. HAHA. all thanks to my late coming back home almost everyday. HEH. and i can dun touch the computer for like a few days in a row. i wouldnt be able to do that in the hols. oh but thank God, i can amazingly restrain myself from the computer now! HAHAHA.

THINGS happened today. the good and bad. dun feel like talking about it yet((:

dun feel like blogging for now. see ya'll sometime soon.
<33s!

2007-01-14T05:56:00.000-08:00

and this is how my heart breaks.

my family. my dearest. my life. i commit all these to u, daddy God. i know that whatever we are all going through now will all go away with u. we'll all make it through safe and sound. with no adversaries or evil occurances, oh Lord. my family, Lord, is in ur hands. im leaving this family to u. its in ur hands to do whatever u want to do with us((: and we all know that whatever u do and plan for this family, its gona be good! good for all of us :D as for my dearest and me. Lord, u know whats best for us. this relationship is in ur hands((: and as for my own life, i surrender my all to u, daddy God. in all this i pray, in JESUS name. AMEN! :DDD

2007-01-10T05:23:00.000-08:00

school. eat. go home. homework, if i have. sleep, if im really tired. bathe. dinner. computer and tv time. sleep. and then the whole cycle repeats itself. i have no life for goodness sake. BAH. oh. i missed out smth. go to school, seeing baby is the prize of the day. if not school will just be lame shit. wait wait. i see him like almost the whole time in class. okay..im talking shit now. im going off now before i really turn shitty.

2007-01-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

i AM going to hang on no matter what life throws at me. cause i just realised that no matter how much complaining i do, things wont change a bit. school has been crap. but im not gona care so much. im just gona live for God, myself and my dearest. and i WILL hang on.

friends in class, not my close ones. except for a few. im gona try very hard not to care so much about that although i know friends mean ALOT to me. i thought my class this year would be an interesting one. but turns out..oh well. i wont say a thing about it. gona sadden me.

my heart's been sick or smth for the past 2 days. i had completely no feelings for practically anyone. and to admit, even my feelings for my dearest turned cold. and i couldnt even get myself to pray. i just poured everything out to God. and yesterday i was stupid enough to ask God for a fever so that i wont need to go to school and face the people and the stupid and lame teachers.

haha. ahhhhhhhhh. God helped. im so glad he made me wake up! and made me realised that complaining aint gona change anything. oh and my dearest. been complaining to him about everything. from school, the people and right down to my hair. HEH. thank God for him, really. if not i think i would've made some rash decision that i myself wont know what i was doing. THANK U, DEAR. LOVE LOVE LOVE!((:

and students that may be feeling down about school or other things. school has just started. im not really adjusted back to my old self yet, but im sure i will. and u people will too, for sure((: life in school is gona be a short one. so just cherish the time spent. before u know it, it'll be gone.

and zann. this for u. sorry i had to delete the previous part about u. i thought my blogger had a problem. but it turns out it didnt -.- hahaha. sorry!
THANK U SO MUCH! thank u for always being there for me whenever i need u. thank u for always lending that listening ear when i need one. thank u for always listening to me complain and all. yes, we dun go out that often (which i think we should), but u're always there((: thank u, sweetie! life just wouldnt be the same without u. and and, we must go get our pspppppppppppp! :D u're one great GREAT friend. LOVE U ALOTTTTTTTTTTT!((:

2007-01-04T05:33:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL SUCKS.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
MY CLASS TEACHERS SUCK.
I DUN HAVE A FIXED PARTNER TO GO WITH IN CLASS.
UPPER SEC SUCKS.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD, HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hair grow, hair grow!

2006-12-31T08:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
<33s!
((:

my motto this year: REST REST REST!
as what Pastor Prince preached in his sermon yesterday, which was last year. haha. last year was a blast. it was a very blessed and good year, along with some difficulties as well. but with God, i went through them and came out safe and sound. with no adversaries or evil occurence! :D and the friends that have been with me from God knows when, and those that i made last year. THANK GOD FOR ALL OF U! last year wouldnt be a year without u all! <33s.>

omg. my phone is crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. or isit just the connection? I HOPE SO.

2006-12-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

photos after the wedding at home. holidays are boring. thank God school is reopening soon! back to seeing my dearest almost everyday. and time for me to put on weight again. i've been losing weight and i duno how much i've lost)):

2006-12-25T09:11:00.000-08:00

JIE JIE LERANE'S AND UNCLE SEH MIN'S WEDDING! heh. i know i should start calling her auntie lerane, but then its difficult to change. i've been calling her jie jie for the longest time and now its hard to change alreadi. hehe. and there are so many other people i still call gor gors and jie jies. been calling them that since i was a child. so yah, difficult lah. HEH. the ambience was so so so nice. REGENT HOTEL! the deco. oh..its so beautiful((: the food..HEAVENLY! heeeee. okay. i shall zip and let the pictures speak now. bye people. <33s!

this is UNCLE DUNCAN. he's known as TOY STORY! and he requested to take a photo with me because he calls me pocahantas. i duno how to spell it. heh. he said i looked like her. so yah. 2 cartoon characters!((: HAHAHA.

spot me! HO HO.

oh..the pretty pretty bride. when will it be my turn? :D

and yes. last but not least, THE FAMILY(((((:
<33s!

oh yah. the people in my ex church were like. 'WAH. SHE SO BIG ALREADI. SHE'S TALLER THAN HER MUMMY!', 'YOU LOOK SO LADY, RACHEL.', 'HOW OLD ARE U NOW?' and then i'll say next year sec 3 or 15. then they'll go, 'WOAH..SO FAST.' hahahaha. these praises are nice to hear((: they're ear-candy!

2006-12-24T23:27:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS. <33s.>

2006-12-23T08:10:00.000-08:00

i thank God for everything.
i thank God for my dearest.
i thank my dearest for that watch((:
i thank God for my family.
i thank God for my friends.
i thank God that school's gona reopen soon.
i thank God for christmas! its gone be christmas in 1 day!((: looking forward to it. heh. celebration at siglap later after church in the indoor stadium. then will be going to nana's house for another celebration, then back to siglap. im SO looking forward to it. <33s!

I THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!
this rocks. i pray i will be this happy and grateful everyday.
(((((((:

2006-12-20T06:27:00.000-08:00

ah ma! <33s.

((:

im gona leave everything to God and see what he has in plan for this family.

2006-12-20T03:22:00.000-08:00

i duno what the fcuk is happening.

2006-12-16T02:14:00.000-08:00

okay. i need to say smth about this picture. reuben saw this and he said, 'TAKE AGAIN TAKE AGAIN!' cause my head was blocked by his. awwwww...how sweet right?((:

TADA!!

my throat's killing me...AHHHHHHHHHH!)): oh well. God will heal me. gone to some events recently. reuben's b'day and zann's chalet. enjoyed them both((: i'll let the pictures do the talking since im dumb now, for sometime. i pray the flu will clear soon. i wana see baby on tuesday! GOD, HELP!!

abundant life you've given.

2006-12-15T09:22:00.000-08:00

HELLO people. yesterday's post was just emo shit. sorry bout that. heh. am alot better today after crying it out((: thank God, thank baby and thank ah ma! these 3 people always always are there for me whenever im feeling down and under. THANKS ALOT((: <33s

i FINALLY bought smth in vivo for the first time, after going there like the 6th or more times. haha. i never bought anything except for movie tickets and food. first time today((: bought a mango top. was on sale. heh. thanks to my auntie for that top!

i want:
THAT LEVI'S JEANS.
THAT PARIS HILTON'S PERFUME.
A BIG BIG BAG.
MORE TOPS.
MORE BOTTOMS.
MORE OF GOD!!
my christmas wishlist for now. ask me if u wana know more((: heh. <3s!

came home. watched NEW CREATION CHURCH'S new dvd 2 times in a row. the worship was AMAZING. the songs are FANTASTIC. GOD IS EVEN GREATER THAN ALL THESE(((: u'll never get tired of the songs, i tell u. heh. will post some if i have the time.

oh one thing. i went vivo in the afternoon, while baby went at night. how big a 'COINCIDENCE' eh? missed that chance to see him just by that few hours! BOOOOOOOOO. miss him heaven loads ): oh well. we'll be seeing each other on tuesday!((:

thank God for today. i had a whole load of fun with my sis, aunt and uncle((:
baby, see u soon!

jesus, you're my everything.

i have in you all that i need.

<333

2006-12-14T07:59:00.000-08:00

i duno what the heck to do now okay. i hate the holidays so much. it seems to be bringing me more problems than before school closed. ARGH. i hate it. stupid com, stupid mother, stupid maple, stupid HIM, stupid EVERYTHING!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I HATE IT

I HATE IT!!!!!!!! im not even in the right mind to pray. gosh.....

2006-12-11T06:28:00.000-08:00

EDA!

PIRATE SHIP!

HELICOPTER!

in eda's house now. and im blogging. WOOT! i cant believe eda, my deeeeeeeeer friend and me sat these 2 rides! HAHAHA. we have got deprived childhoods((: and the 2 rides are those pasar malam kind for small kids to sit! LOL. we were laughing like mad all the way lah. DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD, u see?

2006-12-08T00:22:00.000-08:00

the way some people handle things just amuses me. im not pin-pointing anyone. just saying it in general. one word. CONTRADICTIONS.

held in your ambrace.

kissed by your love.

the heir of the world.

God, im leaving all this to u.

2006-12-06T10:28:00.000-08:00

WE DIED AS A COUPLE.

2006-12-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

DARN. I HATE THE DAMN HOLIDAYS! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. it would be another 26 more days before i can go back to school, seeing baby almost everyday. i want that again! URGH. HOLIDAYS, U SUCK!

but then again..holidays are a time for me to rest and really get my much loved sleep. and a time for me to have fun and just relax. it brings me great joy to go out with my friends and catch up with them. oh, how life contradicts.

ahhhhhhhhh. i miss baby ):

2006-12-05T06:22:00.000-08:00

ESCAPE! today with my sis, my deeeeeeeeer friend and tania!! had a hell load of fun!((: sat almost everything except for those under maintanance. flipper, wet and wild, the SMALL rollercoaster, the aeroplane thingy so on and so forth. UBER FUN!! heh. had a quarrel with my sister in the afternoon over the go kart thingy cause she couldnt sit, but then we made up and had more fun((:

THANK U PEOPLE! MADE MY DAY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ENJOYABLE. LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE((:

2006-11-30T05:33:00.000-08:00

life is never easy. it is never predictable. it holds ur future. it has full of ups and downs. one major setback will very soon become a thing of the past. as long as you wont give up, there will still be hope.

love is the same. it is also never predictable. it is contradicting. it can make u very very happy and very very upset. it can make u hold your ground and it can make you stand up and shout. it can make you live and it can kill you.

love is a part of life that everyone must have. LIFE is never easy. it has full of ups and downs. But with God, everything is possible((:

my dearest: thanks ALOT for always being there for me. thank u for always assuring me u'll never leave me. thank u for everything that u've done for me. most importantly, thank u for loving me. I LOVE U((:

2006-11-29T09:38:00.000-08:00

PEOPLE. READ THIS.

http://www.buzzle.com/editorials/1-23-2006-87132.asp i LOVEEEEEEEEE the last sentence.

2006-11-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

i duno what to do now.....

2006-11-26T20:58:00.000-08:00

this is going to be a bitch-post. read on if u wana know how the hell SOME people can be so freaking heartless and cold.

making her sad.

making her cry.

making her miserable.

making her lose herself.

making her pin for u every single day.

DO U HAVE A HEART OR NOT?! ARE U A MAN? using God's name in vain is a sin, u moron. every single thing u talk about is about God. breaking up because u dun wana hinder her relationship with God. idiotic excuse okay. please, for goodness sake.

she wants to give up. u dun let her. u want her to carry on feeling miserable and all because of it isit? DO U FREAKING CARE ABOUT HER FEELINGS? DO U HAVE A CONSCIENCE OR NOT? god..u disgust me, FREAKING COLD B**TARD. u are like controlling her every move. not letting her be herself. not letting her speak up. U WANT HER TO SNAP, DONT U?

God here God there. his name is not for u to use in vain! 'girls cannot have short hair' as quoted from the bible, u said. u freaking thing. where in the world does this phrase in the bible come from? SHOW ME. u're also going against me if u say that.

FCUK. U SUCK LIKE HELL.

i know im in no position to say such things about u and hurl vulgarities at u. but u are carrying it too far okay? know ur limits, please.

2006-11-24T08:55:00.000-08:00

cinema had a BLACK OUT for the first time in my life. tampines mall had some power problem. was watching HAPPY FEET when it happened! URGH. there goes our show.....

i really hope u would move on and get on with ur life.

2006-11-21T07:33:00.000-08:00

holidays have been a bore. thank God i'll be able to see baby tomoro!((: yay!

2006-11-18T07:47:00.000-08:00

you know what. i rather just shut up and not ask or be so concerned.

2006-11-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

WHY? WHY? isit so hard just to let go? is she worth it? is she? comdemning urself, deceiving urself, letting urself just literally rot in depression everyday? is she worth it?

dwelling on her everyday. letting ur emotions take control of u. saying that life has no meaning and life is a living hell. saying that God doesnt help. asking God to just send a car to kill u. ignoring all ur friends. HELLO. WAKE UP. just STOP dwelling on her okay? stop letting ur emotions take control okay? stop saying that life has no meaning and that its a living hell okay? stop asking God to send a car to kill u okay? and please. STOP ignoring all ur friends. any idea how we feel? any idea?

u ask me whether i have any idea how u feel. i will say i duno. because u just ignore all of us. just shut urself off. dun tell us how u feel. how would we know? how would we?

everytime. everytime we help. yes, we do succeed in making u think otherwise. but u ALWAYS turn things around again. u go back to ur 'i wana die' mood and just shut us off again. ALWAYS. IT NEVER FAILS TO BE LIKE THAT. WHY? WHY? cant u just let go? she is NOT worth it, understand? why cant u just seem to understand that? so many people are affected by u, alright? just think of ur family and friends. if u just drop dead one day, how would we feel?

GROW UP. JUST GROW UP. STOP THINKING LIKE A SMALL KID. WAKE UP, WILL U?

i have completely no idea how u can just dwell on ur problems every single day. NO IDEA. U ARE A COMPLETE TOTAL UTTER DISAPPOINTMENT.

2006-11-16T01:04:00.000-08:00

DAMN THE CRAMPS. bah.

2006-11-13T08:33:00.000-08:00

MY DEER FRIEND IS IN LOVE WITH RUBY! yayyyyyyyyyyyyy. ruby has found a playing partner! saves me the trouble to having hear her bark and bark everyday cause our family just doesnt have the time to play with her)): not that we dun want to. its just that we dun have the time. so thank God for yu xiu((:

YU XIU! come my house more often, kay? heh.

LOVE((:

damn. i miss baby.

2006-11-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

EVERYONE HAS A HOLE IN THEIR ARSE!((:

2006-11-03T09:20:00.000-08:00

YAY day! with baby, bro and my DEER friend((:

17TH MONTH WITH MY DEAREST! LOVE!(((((:

FLUSHED AWAY! the slugs. omg. damn cute. HAHA. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

SAKAE! the 18 plates of salmon..the PICKLED TUNA SUSHI! LOL. and my DEER friend doesnt know how to use chopsticks!! HAHAHA. thanks to bro for the treat!

other SUPER AMUSING things happened today. that stupid lil kid, the mrt guy, the MODEL. hahahaha. stupid but damn funny((:

oh yah. 3-4 next year. POA, LIT. nothing to do with what i wana do next time, but oh well. the people are enough to make it up((: and i can still study my vet's course next time. I WILL.

people in 3-4:

baby. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!((:

kai jing

daryl

daniel

max

alvin

wei qiang

ken kiat

wen liang

shu feng

lidia

tania

muthu

grace

keng ling

jasmine

ariel

hui en

janice

melody

alexis(brrr!!)

felicia(brrr!!)

thats all i know((: hope next year will be as good a year as this year!

LOVE((:

2006-11-01T07:35:00.000-08:00

day was GREAT! FINALLY bought my bag! HEEEEEEEEE((: go to DUCK'S blog if u wana find out more!((: LOVE!

2006-10-31T02:11:00.000-08:00

holidays are a BORE. BORE. but thank God theres choir. to KILL time. and i miss my dearest!)):

2006-10-27T04:17:00.000-07:00

KUEH YU XIU!

omg...ur post about me sooooooooo long. TOUCHED TOUCHED TOUCHED! heh. this is gona be another post for u. INHUMAN!! hahaha.

our finding each other after school routine. LUNCH at mac, kfc, PASTAMANIA!, pizza hut so on..our making each other's hair stand BET. our taking our driver's theory at 16 and license at 18 deal. our calling each other names. our viewing people's friendster profiles and laughing our asses off at stupid people. our making fun of people. our movie watching times at SMALL SMALL SMALL cinemas and our last row seats routine. hahahaha. our making up of stories because of something majorly small and stupid like the NOOB story where everyone ends up dead. LOL. her OBSSESSION with CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW and i dun mind cause im good to her((: HEH! and my slapping of her beloved captain and again she doesnt mind. heh heh. our cheese on top of garlic bread and in soup, cheese fries, fries in coke. HAHAHA. yum yum! and the list goes on...

she's the 2nd person in my life that i really thank God for. first is my dearest, of course((: she's made life in school SUPER fun and interesting. and she makes me think twice about not coming to school.

KUEH YU XIU, THANK U SOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE. THANK U FOR MAKING LIFE SOOOOOOOOOO INTERESTING FOR ME. THANK U FOR THESE 2 YEARS. THANK U FOR CHEERING ME UP WHENEVER IM SAD. THANK U FOR BEING THAT LISTENING EAR FOR ME TO RANT AT WHENEVER I NEED TO. heh. THANK U FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ALWAYS AND MOST OF ALL, THANK U FOR BEING MY DEAREST FRIEND!

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE U TO BITS! INHUMAN.....heh heh((:

friends for life, yes?((:

2006-10-27T01:22:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY DEAREST FRIEND, KUEH YU XIU!

she's one person i can tell EVERYTHING to. we talk about everything under the sun. lunch together VERY VERY OFTEN. can make up a big big story because of something majorly small. like everyone will die cause of someone calling someone a NOOB. HAHAHA. i forgot how to eat baked rice and she called me stupid. hahaha. and she said exams has killed me. HAHA. and the folding of stars. she called me a star folder. LOL. and i dun ditch u when im with baby cause im nice, kueh yu xiu! hahahahaha.

THANK GOD FOR U IN MY LIFE. MADE MY LIFE IN SEC 1 AND 2 THE MOST FUN TIME OF MY LIFE((: we wont be in the same class for sure next year, but we'll still do what we do the best yes? FINDING EACH OTHER AFTER SCHOOL! heh. it wont stop us, yes?

LOVEEEEEEEEEEE((:

2006-10-26T05:58:00.000-07:00

life in sec 2 ends today. been through ALOT this whole year with the people around me. really wana thank God for being with me through everything and the people that saw me through this whole year of sec 2.

THANK U, PEOPLE. LOVE((: especially these special people. my dearest, my dearest ah ma (eda), my dearest friend (yu xiu), my daughter (jeslin), zann, bro (kaijing), ivan, daryl, daniel, grace, yu yi, lydia, shufeng, hui en, tania, charmaine and all the other people around me. A BIG THANK U TO ALL OF U((: lots of LOVE.

we might not be in the same class next year, but our friendship will be remembered, always((:

LOVE.

2006-10-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

i seriously have nothing to say.

2006-10-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

BORED BORED BORED.
ROT ROT ROT.
2 MONTHS OF ROTTING MYSELF DEAD. BOOOOOOOO.

anyway, found this cd my sister was involved in the vocals.

WHO ELSE BUT HIM

have you wondered
who made the stars that twinkle
and hung the moon that lights the sky
who by his understanding
made the heavens
and spread the earth upon the waters

have you asked
who chooses the colour for the flowers
and feeds the sparrow that fly in the sky
who sends the rain to water the earth
and leads the sun to rise every morn

chorus:
who else but him
the one who loves you and me
he'll give rest to the weary
and comfort those who weep
who else but him
the one who knows you and me
he'll hold you when you call him
and will never leave your side
who else but him

have you wondered
who causes the woman's womb to conceive life
and gives her baby the very first cry
who by his wisdom makes the hands
and arms to give the touch of love

have you asked
who sees the deeds of every man
and lets his soul desire to be cared
who gives him the longing to be loved
and offers him peace no one else can give

chorus

ending:
he's everything you hope for
the only thing you need
so come to the arms of Jesus
who else but him

2006-10-11T07:13:00.000-07:00

PASIR RIS. BUS 58. SERANGOON. BACK TO PASIR RIS.

this was our route today((: nice eh? heh.

BUS 58 ROCKS. I LOVE IT, AND THE RIDE WITH BABY((: thank God for him!

2006-10-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

2 days of exams and still going. geog is seriously gona die. thank God maths was quite okay. for the first time, maths was quite easy (:

my heart on my phone has gone missing ): really really liked it. oh well. it will be replaced straight after the exams (:

GOD BLESS ALL THOSE WHO ARE IN THE MIDST OF THE EOYS.

ALL THE BEST!

GROW HAIR. GROW!!!

LOVE ((:

2006-09-26T04:00:00.000-07:00

MUG MUG MUG. for the ever-so-nearing exams.

oh Lord, my trust is in you.

2006-09-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

gastric gastric gastric gastric gastric!! BAH )': God please take it away!

2006-09-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you through the night, but deep down in my heart, I know this is true. No matter what happens, I will always love you.

I will walk through the desert heat; I will climb the mountain's peak. I will swim in the deepest sea just to be there for you.

I will pull a star out of the sky for you. To the edge of the earth I will go to see you. It’s true. I love you more than words can say.

I’m gonna let you know I love you. I’m gonna let you know I care. I’m gonna let you know that for you, I will be there.

2006-09-15T10:32:00.000-07:00

BABY, PRAY PRAY PRAY. YES, SOME THINGS ARE BEYOND OUR CONTROL. BUT, GOD CAN HELP AND HE WILL. JUST ASK AND U'LL BE GIVEN. AND AND. I'LL ALWAYS ALWAYS BE HERE FOR U. PLEASE DO CHEER UP? IT PAINS ME SEEING U SAD ):

I LOVE U, MY DEAR.

as long as the sun shines over the earth, and the stars shine above, there'll always be you and me.

without you, where do i belong?

2006-09-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

BAH. I MISS BABY BADLY )":

2006-09-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

hello hello. had a GOOD, GREAT, WONDERFUL, FANTASTIC AND MARVELOUS time with baby today! heh heh. went to ps. watched devil wears prada again. haha. yu xiu says im rich, just because i watched it twice. HAHA. I LOVEEEEEEEEE TODAY!((:

LOVE U LOADS, BABY.

2006-09-05T08:20:00.000-07:00

the man that we all adore and respect. WE'LL MISS U, STEVE IRWIN.

2006-09-04T02:00:00.000-07:00

HOW COULD HE DIE? HOW?! HOW?!

STEVE IRWIN was such a great man. such a great man in conservation work. such a God-sent man. that he would go all out to conserve animals. his passion in his work is so clearly seen in his shows. he would go all out to even rescue a small animal.

he died while filming a documentary. killed by a stingray. he's only 44. he has a wife and 2 kids. the kids are so so young. 8 and 3. imagine them being fatherless at such a young age. SIGH. he died for a good cause lah. now his time is up. i STRONGLY BELIEVE that he's in heaven. GOD wouldnt let him die for nothing and put him in hell. yes, my dream is dashed. my dream to see him, all dashed. but i believe that he'll be in heaven.

STEVE IRWIN.

i will miss all ur shows. ur crocodile shows. ur new breed vets. ur croc files. u've done alot for animals. i believe that u're in heaven. i believe i will see u there, someday. THANK U FOR FILMING SUCH GREAT DOCUMENTARIES AND UR GREAT GREAT WORKS. animals will love u for that. crikey!

REST IN PEACE.

2006-09-03T08:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 15th MONTH, MY DEAR! we'll have MANY MANY MANY more months and years to come, yes?((: LOVE U LOADS. miss u TONS too. cant wait to see u.

sorry about tomoro ah. just really wana clear all my hmwk asap. then will have more time to spend with u. i know u understand, yah?((:

LOVE U LOADS, MY DEAR.

2006-08-31T06:50:00.000-07:00

GOD. some parents are just so. I DUNO WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THEM.

baby, cheer up alright? i know some problems are beyond our control. i'll continue praying for u. and u can be assured that i'll always, ALWAYS stand by u and be there for u((: it pains me ALOT seeing u sad. u have other reasons to smile, my dear. think of those things and smile. seeing u happy, makes me happy too. promise me u'll cheer up, alright?((:

I LOVE U, BABY((:

2006-08-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

IM HAPPY. VERY VERY VERY HAPPY. the thing is finally over, i think. the whole thing was actually started by my own wrong doing. its my own fault. i made her lose her trust in me. im sad lah. but im trying my very best to help her regain her trust in me. GOD WILL HELP, i believe(:

TO THE PEOPLE THAT COMFORTED ME AND CHEERED ME UP DURING THAT TIME. THANKS ALOT. ALOT. those words really helped me ALOT. those advices really helped me too. i've made up my mind on what to do. im sticking with the group still. cause God gave me the peace and assurance that everything's gona be okay. THANK GOD((: THANKS ALOT PEOPLE!

YAY! baby can msg alreadi. FINALLY, after SOOOOOOOOOOOO long. heh((:

I MISS BABY.

2006-08-24T06:36:00.000-07:00

im leaving everything to God now. since the matter is really outta my hands. trusting and believing that he will help. and jeslin. dun worry. i will leave if u really want me to.

2006-08-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

THANKS ALOT PEOPLE. THANKS ALOT FOR CHEERING ME UP WITH UR TAGS AND ALL. ITS VERY COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT THERES SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE THERE FOR ME. although the problem isnt getting anywhere, i wana thank the people that cheered me up. too many to name. THANK U ALL((: i'll continue trusting God to solve this problem for me. like what gary said. GOD HAS HELPED ME THROUGH IT ONCE, HE WILL HELP ME THROUGH IT AGAIN((: its the other people around me that make me feel that life is still worth living. GOD IS MY MAIN REASON((:

THANK U PEOPLE.

LOVE((:

2006-08-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

im feeling jealous. AND I DUNO WHAT THE HELL AM I BEING JEALOUS FOR -.- and hell i miss baby. BAH.

2006-08-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

had PFT yesterday and today. ran at a timing of 17.19. like shit. after the run, i dropped flat on the ground. haha. yuxiu had to pull me up. went back to class, muscles ached like MAD. BOO.

5 stations today. standing broad jump was like shit. dun wana talk about it. sit and reach. 35 cm only. BAH. sit ups. dun wana talk about it. INCLINED PULL UPS! I JUST HAD TO DO 1 MORE TO GET AN A!! JUST 1 MORE. BOOOOOOOOOO. shuttle run. hmm. quite happy with it. 11.8((: got a B. but my overall marks sucks. think i just passed. oh well. i still thank God for giving the strength to do everything((: now my whole body is aching like MAD.

im really unhappy being with THEM. but, i cant show it. im afraid if i show it, the whole thing will start again. like that happened 3 weeks ago. im real afraid. i feel im like a rubberband. one which is gona snap anytime. i dun like seeing the both of them so close. they keep secrets to themselves. they have suddenly become sooooooo close. they talk and talk and talk. sometimes i just duno what the hell they're talking about. funny how i can be with them and laugh and smile at them. it might be fake. even i myself duno. BAH. this thing is getting worst. DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT IM GOING THROUGH? apparently at this time, NO.

today, it happened again. SHE just went over to HER place, sat next to HER and started talking. i was feeling ROTTEN. like im some kinda idiot. i looked at her, then she just looked back at me. NO ONE KNEW HOW I FELT. in school, i laugh and smile at them and all. but. somehow i feel its not real. i dun even know for sure whether its real. i dun wana bring this whole matter up again, but i would have really snapped if i didnt. BAH. why is this happening?? WHY??)):

IS LIFE EVER BEAUTIFUL?

2006-08-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

I NEED A BREATHER.

and i duno if im being petty to feel like that. YOU, and YOU are SCARED of me. u say u're scared because u're scared that i'll get angry with u all. AM I THAT FIERCE? AM I? if its because of my face, then im sorry i cant do anything about it. i know if i dun smile, i will have that -.- face. im sorry. but i cant do anything to change it. SCREW OFF if u dun like it. u dun have to put up with me if u dun want to. im human also okay. if im not happy, do i fake a smile and smile at u? do u expect me to do that? i have feelings for god sake. DAMN IT. please lah. DUN LIKE ME OR MY FACE, THEN F*** OFF. i really feel that they have come btw us. u get so close and all to them, have u ever cared about my feelings? u told HER things. u 2 keep secrets to the both of u. OKAY. i dun care. i cant care. but have u ever cared about how i feel? have u? SIGH.

well. thats all i have to say. THINK ABOUT IT.

2006-08-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

WHERE? WHERE THE HELL IS BABY?!?!?! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH )':

I FEEL LIKE FINDING THE HARDEST WALL THERE IS ON THIS WORLD AND BANG MY HEAD AGAINST IT.

FCUKSHIT.

2006-08-15T05:17:00.000-07:00

changed my blogskin! COMMENTS PEOPLE!!((:

2006-08-14T06:30:00.000-07:00

THERE WAS SHIT OUTSIDE MY CLASSROOM'S LEDGE TODAY. AND IT STINKED REAL BAD.

2006-08-11T07:04:00.000-07:00

BAH. SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AGAIN. WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL NEGLECTED? WHY?!?! GOD, TELL ME WHY. I DUN WANT THIS TO HAPPEN AGAIN. I DUN WANT THE WHOLE THING TO HAPPEN AGAIN. but why does it seem like its gona happen again? WHY?! recess today was the worst. i felt..... no one knows how i feel.

I JUST WANA BREAK DOWN AND CRY.

2006-08-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

maybe getting ruby was a BIG FAT mistake made by my family. she's getting kinda irritating to my family and me now. getting on our nerves. she goes around biting stuff. biting wires. in her cage, she tears her newspaper and her rubber mat! dang. it really gets on our nerves. LORD, HELP!! i really hope it wasnt a mistake getting her. BOO)):

LORD, HELP!!

oh and. GOD RULES! he restored my internet just now! i was going bonkers over my stupid internet. i was talking to myself. i wanted to take and knife and go after the stupid internet people. HAHA. i was mad. REAL mad. PRAYED. GOD RESTORED IT! YAY! GOD REIGNS((: I LOVE GOD!!((:

i love baby too! heeeee((:

2006-08-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

TODAY ROCKS!

met yuxiu at aljunied mrt at about 12. we thought of going to town, but then since yuxiu has never been to marina square IN HER WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, we decided to go there. haha. baby was there with his friends also. but didnt meet them. saw them only outside the cinema. we were watching the same show! THE FAST AND FURIOUS, TOYKO DRIFT. haha. ME AND YUXIU DIDNT PURPOSELY CHOOSE THE SAME SHOW AND TIME AH. just decided to watch it since my cousins said it was nice. hehe.

the show was okay okay lah. the DRIFTING, WOAH! VERY VERY NICE AND COOL. han was cool. dun like dk. such a bad man. haha. went bowling with baby, bk and xin yu. didnt bowl cause i couldnt. BAH. i would have if i could lah. havent bowled for duno how long alreadi. oh well. wil bowl soon. baby won the game! total up the score then he won. happy for him!((: went home after that. yuxiu and him keep quarrelling. damn funny lah the both of them! haha. fun and tiring day((: THANK GOD FOR TODAY. IT TURNED OUT VERY VERY WELL!

LOVE U, BABY.